Sunday, January 2, 2011

New Year Resolutions

I never make Resolutions but I do like to think of a new year as a new start... I also think of my Birthday as a new start, as well... which is conveniently half way through the year, so every six months I get a new start, haha.

This year I desperately want to work on bettering myself. Drinking less, reading more. Being a bit less outspoken and more calm instead. Listen more. But most of all, become more positive, happy and optimistic. I want to be content with myself and what I'm doing, instead of always feeling like I'm wallowing in my self pity, loneliness and self consciousness.

I spend so much time wanting friends and a lover of my own that all the time between I'm wrought with heart ache. I think this needs to be the start of the end of that. Wake up every day for ME and doing what I want and what makes me happy- and healthy.

Perhaps having such a shitty day yesterday was a good thing, a final kick in the ass that says, Meagan, if you want it, make it.

If you want it, Make it.

So:

1. Read more, party less.
2. Speak less, listen more.
3. Sleep at night, get up in the morning even if I can't sleep through the night.
4. Work out.
5. Formal shoot at least once a week.
6. No drinking during the weeks when school is in session.
7. Quit smoking by the end of the year.
8. Travel out of the country
9. Write something daily (journal/letter/blog/etc)
10. Continue eliminating people and circumstances that are a negative influence on my life.